I’m traveling most of July, and today’s share is coming in more personal, shorter and yes, sweeter. I’m trusting it will land in your heart and leave you with a loving invitation to your own expanded perspective. If it resonates with you, please comment and let me know? xo, Gaby
I’ve been contextualizing my life as being in “the void” for over two years.
I’ve been (at times, desperately) seeking deeper inspiration, more straight-forward clarity, and to experience the kind of undeniable drive for execution and growth that led the first six years of my entrepreneurial journey.
It recently dawned on me that this explanation of my experience uniquely centers my work as the driving force of my life.
{Deep exhales}
And of course, with loads of compassion and understanding, I see how this is what would feel right to me.
After a decade of single motherhood, feeling the urgency to create, produce, have a certain kind of impact - to suddenly not experience my work with the same level of intensity has felt like existential threat to my system.
Recently, I had a moment when the veil lifted and I could truly allow for the rest of my life to hold the weight it does in my perspective.
So, outside of work, you ask?
Here’s what has been happening over the past three years:
I met and married the love of my life and we’ve created a new blended family.
I’ve experienced a thousand ego deaths as I allow myself to receive, give, and know myself worthy of this kind of love.
I’ve learned to embrace rest, ease, and support as I’ve shifted out of the mode of hustle and carrying everything alone.
I’ve learned to trust this partnership and know it to be mine.
I’ve recognized and confronted the fawning and co-dependent relationships I held with people close to me - and I’ve either repaired & corrected or let go of those relationships.
I’m learning and opening to the remarkably unique and special love and relationships that being a stepmom brings.
I’ve learned to cook massive amounts of food, and absolutely love it.
I’ve learned to release my controlling tendencies with my son, allowing him to be his own person, and learn from his own mistakes. He’s even going to sleep-away camp this Summer!
I’ve maintained the sisterhood that holds me, in new, more potent and profound ways.
I’ve been taking care of my body for the first time in my life - working out 2-3x/ week.
I’ve completed a 6-month container for Shadow Integration Coaching, which of course was also an invitation for me to go to the depths of my own darkness, fear and shame, integrate, and fall absolutely in love with all of me.
I’ve grieved the old me, with her old stories, dreams, and attachments - allowing a new me to come forth.
I’ve claimed this life as fully mine. I know now that I gave birth to it too.
The last three years feel like the healing quantum leap of a lifetime.
I’ve felt guided by my soul and my ancestors every step of the way on this journey. I know I am exactly where I need to be.
And so, perhaps I can give myself a break about work not being the central driving force of my life recently?
It has reminded me of the healing work that I believe for some of us can only happen when we’re single. In this moment for me, there has been no capacity for huge launches, massive community growth, or new product lines.
This work within has needed the space to happen, integrate and seal.
I am thrilled and so damn proud for this version of me to show up in all aspects of my life - including my work. I can’t wait to see what she creates.
Below are the invitations for reflection for today:
What are you centering in your life in this season?
Where are you healing in this moment, and how can you honor and make real space for it?
What is the story you are telling about your (whole) life right now?
At the end of your life - how will you want to be remembered?
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